Why Didn't Anyone Warn Me I'd Become Addicted to Military Life?

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I'd Become Addicted to Military Life
A military spouse with her service member. (DVIDS/Keith Hayes)

I’ve learned many things in my years as a military spouse, things I wish I’d known before I started. Why didn’t anyone tell me I’d become addicted to it? Why didn't you tell me that this life -- this physically and emotionally exhausting military life -- is like a drug I can’t stop taking.

It’s not because I enjoy the pain. I'm addicted because I know it’s right. What you do is honorable and humble and selfless. Despite the struggles I must face as your spouse, I have pride. I have pride for you and the weight you must bear when you are away from us. I have pride in our country and how hard it has worked to maintain freedom for its citizens. I have pride in the multitude of men and women who have died heroically so that I can feel safe at home.

No, I can’t walk away. I can’t say no to you or to the military. I can’t turn away from the sacrifices we must make no matter how badly I want to. I am addicted to this life you have led me into.

Your plan used to be different. You used to say you would only be in for one tour. You used to say that once your contract was up, you would get out. Early on, I planned on this. I thought if I just stuck it out through a few hard years, it would be smooth sailing afterward. I would be able to go back to the life I knew, a life I was familiar with, and we would move on as regular people with regular jobs.

Plans change. You chose to stay in. I chose to support you. There was part of me that didn’t want to give my support but instead wanted to tell you it’s either me or the military. But that is the irrational part of me. The sensible part of me knew it was the right thing to do. I had quit things in the past, but I couldn’t quit this. I knew there was a reason for me to stay even if it was still very unclear.

I struggle in this life more than I ever thought I would. If anyone had asked me when I was a little girl, I would have given them a clearly defined picture of my happily ever after. It would not have included any of the struggles I have faced thus far.

But this life is not just about me. It is about you, our children, our country and our freedom. It is about doing what is right, even if that means experiencing pain along the way. It is about patience and perseverance and doing things that are honorable. It is about making commitments and sticking to them. It is about doing what we can to keep a country great.

Without you, I would have never known this. I would have never discovered that the only way to truly get stronger is by facing the things we don’t want to, I would have never had the opportunity to expand my boundaries beyond what is comfortable.

Lisa is the wife of a USMC Cobra pilot and stay-home mother of two. She has been through three deployments and four moves throughout her eight years as a military spouse. In her free time, Lisa enjoy sreading, cooking, shopping and spending time with family and friends.

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