Just Another Day

It's been an eternity since I've heard from my husband.  OK, it was just last Thursday, but for some reason it feels really long.  And it's playing tricks on my head by now.  Yesterday I had nothing to do and was wearing sweatpants around the house.  I actually had the thought that maybe I ought to dress up or look a little nicer, just in case casualty notification showed up at the door.  Then I thought maybe I ought to clean up my bedroom a little, so they wouldn't see the pile of underpants I had folded but not put away.  And then I started telling myself I was being silly and to just relax.  But part of me was nagging that I would regret it if I had to excuse myself from notification to go put away the laundry.  Round and round like a crazy person after only five days of unexpected absence. 

And I'm filing this post under "Day in the Life of a Milspouse" because, sadly, thinking they might be dead is just a normal part of our day sometimes...

Comments

[Love My Soldier]

I totally understand. Recently, 4 soldiers were KIA in Afghan. and one of them graduated in 2008 from my old HS. It just so happened, he also was a close friend of my best friend's little sister. (hopefully you got that). All I can focus on is staying strong and keep in mind that when it's his time to go, it's his time. Until then, I must trust in the Almighty!

Be blessed!

[Sis B]

I remember those days so keenly I teared up reading your post. Funny, cause when I experienced it firsthand the tears wouldn't flow. It was very matter-of-fact.

You'd think after living it, I could come up with something encouraging to say. All I can say is I know exactly what you mean, and I have dressed and cleaned up for the occasion more times than I can count.

I'm sorry you're going through it now, and I hope he calls soon to end this bout of deployment crazies.

[tankerswife]

This post struck a cord, for sure. I haven't thought about that craziness in a long time. I remember the first time DH left for Iraq, it was just after the initial invasion. To say they lived primitively is probably nice. Needless to say, it was 3 mos before I heard from them. I cried half way through the call. I couldn't help it. He thought it was funny. I guess in hindsight it is.

I hope you hear from him soon. I'm sure he's fine.

[Amy]

This hit home.... my hubby is deployed right now too and the crazy thoughts just keep coming. I can't wait till he is safely home. Holding a good thought for you and your family too!

[Sara V.]

Sometimes the days do run together. I remember when two days seemed like an eternity and then I wanted to slap myself for being such a wussy.And as I'm sure you know that's toned down for me. But you're right, it is a day in the life. Especially if you're bored and your mind is allowed to wander. Funny how the everyday is tied into their absence

[David M]

The Thunder Run has linked to this post in the blog post From the Front: 10/21/2009 News and Personal dispatches from the front and the home front.

http://www.thunderrun.us/2009/10/from-front-10212009.html

[HomefrontSix]

You fold your underware?

[Jessie]

HF 6: you don't??

Yeah, Sarah I get where you are coming from. GI Joe is gone right now and it is hard. I haven't heard from him in 9 days and I have news to share with him and could really use a call. I've had one of those days where I just wondered why hasn't he called, and all the worst cases come to my head. I just remind myself that more than likely he is ok, just can't get to any form of communication and then I call up some friends and try to distract myself. But yes, it is a day in the life.

[Tina]

Yep, looks like we've all been there. I teared up when I read this as well, and also have been there and just went methodically through the motions like it was the most rational thing in the world... preparing for and even expecting someone to come and tell you your husband isn't coming home.

It's a coping mechanism and we'll get through it, just don't do that every day!