On Being a Midget

Yep, that's right.  I'm now officially a single-digit-midget.    And you know what?

It's not all it's made out to be.

Not that it's not a wonderful thing to be expecting your husband home.  It's the part of the deployment we look forward to for months, right?  We wait for it, we long for the final 10-9-8... countdown.  It's what makes the whole deployment possible.

But I'm not generally a nervous person, and here I am unable to eat anything spicier than cheesy toast.

And do you know what the silliest worry I have is?  I'm worried that I smell weird.  Not necessarily bad, but weird.  Like old people, possibly, if the Aveeno lotion I've been using is any indication.

Obviously I have issues, right?  I'm pretty sure that is one of the most ridiculous things a person can come up with to worry about.  But that's it for me.  If I perform some amateur psychology on myself (barring an appointment with Dr. Phil) I think it's pretty obvious that I worry about what I smell like because it's easier for me to address than worries about how I have changed, and how hubby might have changed, while he was gone.

Denial and transference have always worked well for me.

And why worry about smells at all?  Well, because it's always been a big deal to us.  I'm the silly goose who sniffs her husband's t-shirts, especially if he is gone for a while.  When hubby and I started dating I always used peach lotion.  At the time I would buy it at The Body Shop (I no longer shop there, but that's a completely different subject).  Quality peach lotion has been harder and harder to find of late, and so I've slacked off and started using any old thing from Target.

Until about four days ago, I didn't even "get" that hubby was coming home soon.  It seemed almost unfathomable that this deployment - a shorter one than many have had to deal with - was actually almost over.  And when it finally hit me, the mad dash to find peach lotion began.

I actually had to order it online from Bath and Body Works, because they didn't carry it in the store in our area.  It still hasn't gotten here, and I'm not sure it will get here in time.

And so I smell weird.  And I kind of worry about that.

Comments

[Megan]

I'm sure He won't really care. At this point you probably smell better then anyone else he has been around. And worrying about how we've changed is normal. But I'm sure weather you smell like peach or rose or any other femine scent he will be so glad just to hold you. The familiar is nice but you have to give the new you and the new him a chance to mesh and if your wound up that will be hard. Concentrate on the things you have controll over. It may not be much but the little things seem grand to a person returning home.

[Jo]

I agree with Megan, but smells can be stimulating and powerful reminders. Guy at work wears the same aftershave hubby does ... sometimes I just stand next to him and drink it in -- and have some great memories.

[AirForceGuy]

I'm worried about how I smell when I get back, too. I plan to use every Axe product (aftershave, deodorant, body wash, body spray) before I get home. AFW seems to like it...

[Andi]

Congrats on "single-digit midgit" status....

[Sarah]

My husband just kept saying that I smelled "like girl" when he got home. You're gonna smell way better than deployed people, no matter what lotion you're wearing!

[Lemon Stand]

Ahhhh, I so TOTALLY get this!!!! And OMG, I think AFG gets home just before my DH! WOO HOO, happy snoopy dance for both of us!

[Liz]

that is hilarious. I love the unique things each woman worries about when their husband returns. I have 2 more months till the hubbie gets back. This is the longest deployment we've had and we have a little baby. It is crazy, but I like this new website. It makes me feel a litte more sane about it. have a great homecoming!

[Jacintha]

I worry about the silliest things too, but honestly the thing i worry about most is the fact that ive lost 20lbs since he left and were only 1/3 through the deployment...what if i lose 20 more and im not the girl he fell in love with under the stars last summer? what if he doesnt LIKE the new me? but then thats silly because he loves me for WHO i am not WHAT i am, but he told me he LIKED my curves and didnt want me to lose them...but i have to do this for ME because i want to be healthier and i definately want to avoid the problems caused by being over weight. And we want children, and i know its easier to carry them if youre not overweight. i tell myself he loves me and would would want more than anything in the world for me to be happy and healthy, and that is what im working towards. i know im silly too but arent we all some times? i know one thing is certain im NOT changing perfumes while hes gone, he was always adamant about THAT...

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